Friday, November 23, 2012

A thankful heart

As our Thanksgiving holiday has come to an end, I find myself with such a thankful heart this year. The past 3 years have definitely been a growing experience for me. This Thanksgiving I have realized those past 3 years have taught me so much. So I have so much to be thankful for...

The most important is that God loves us no matter how lost we get or how far we run from him. In the past couple of years I thought I was close to God but found that I wasn't in church nor was I even praying, trusting, confiding, or reading His word. I realized not long ago that I was just completely lost. It's funny how God works, one situation can bring you back to Him. So I am completely Thankful for His unfailing love and forgivingness.

Next I am thankful for a wonderful family. God definitely knew what He was doing when He gave me the family He did. I have the greatest parents I could ever ask for. I have a son that has my heart wrapped more than once. I am blessed beyond measure for him to call me " Mommy!" I am certainly thankful for a second chance with the love of my life, Lee. God has bigger and better things for us and isn't finished with US yet! I am gratefully that we have been given another chance. We learned not to give up and to work through everything.  Blessed to him in my life. Much love for my family.

God not only blessed me with a "blood" family but I have a second family that I love just as much as much as my biological family. The Barron family has been such a blessing to me for years now. Since 2004 I have had a second set of parents (ma & pa). Pa went to be with God our savior in August of this year. I also in 2004 adopted 2 brothers! We have fun confusing people with that one. Haha...   Now my second family has grown as both my "brothers" have married. They both have a child of their own now. I thank God for my second family!

I wake up every morning ready to head to my job. Most people wake up dreading it. But I don't. Why? Well, that's easy... I love my job.  I have been blessed with one of the greatest jobs in the world. More importantly is the small group of people I work with. They truly are like family too! Guess I have a huge extended family. :)  I started my job when I was in one of the roughest places in my life and the family at SBR accepted with arms wide open and supported me through everything! For that I am truly thankful.  I can't express how thankful I am to have the job and co-workers.

I guess I could go on and on about things or people I am thankful for. But it would take a long time. So, let me end this way I have a very thankful heart tonight for many reasons. I hope that as you're Thanksgiving holiday comes to end you also have a very thankful heart. I hope that you realize some new things/ people to be thankful for.


Tuesday, November 6, 2012

Four years ago....

As most Americans, we have been watching the TV to see who will be the next President. I was extremely excited today as I cast my vote. Four years ago today the presidential election was the last thing on my mind....

Four years ago I laid in a hospital bed praying that I would not be transported to Birmingham. Four years ago I was pregnant and scared to death. The night before election day in 2008, Lee rushed me to the emergency room. We both knew something was wrong but wasn't sure what it was. As nurses and the doctor come in and out talking and asking a million questions, doing tests, bloodwork and more talking and questions the answer was clear and heartbreaking. I was in pre-term labor!

As a first time mommy to be I wasn't sure what that meant but I just knew it wasn't good. My blood pressure was high and our little man was ready to make his entrance into this world. Doctors gave shots to stop the labor, warning me that if in 12 to 24 hours the labor had not stopped we would be transported to Birmingham. I was told that if we were transported to Birmingham that our little one would be born there even though my due date was January 31, 2009. We were also told it would be hard for our little one to survive. My heart sank and my blood pressure climbed. What was I suppose to do? I mean if I could turn a switch to make the pre term labor stop I would have. I did the only thing I knew to do.....Pray! Between praying, nurses, doctors, and the TV showing the election I wasn't getting much rest. But by morning, my blood pressure was slowly coming down and labor was slowly coming to a stop.by the end of the week the doctor cleared me and I was headed home.

Four years later I casted my vote for who I felt will do their best for this awesome place we live. After voting tonight I was able to go home to the cutest blond hair blue eyed little man I have ever seen. My love for him is more than he will ever know! I thank God I missed an election because I wouldn't want to miss one day with out Stephen!

Monday, September 24, 2012

Jump Rope... Well...

I hate to hear that jump ropes are in my workout! We just don't get along very well. I mean really the jump rope should do exactly what I tell it too! Oh but how it does... I just can't jump rope! Lol.. Yep, I laughed. No need in getting mad about it. Since joining Circle City Crossfit my jump roping skills are slowly improving. And I'm mean slowly! I still remember working out with Rhoda and she would just blow through the jump ropes. Well the same dang thing happened at CCC, except I had like 5 or 6 ladies jumping rope like crazy around me. Im telling you mine are horrible.~ July 2012


Well, the paragraph above is a blog topic I started and never finished in July. Now I am glad I waited to finish this particular post.  Glad for one awesome reason.....  I can jump rope! Finally after practicing and working so hard to just do singles. Singles have become much easier for me. Thank goodness.

This morning our WOD consisted of jumping rope. Before we started our WOD we practiced double unders. If you have watched me, you know my jump ropes are NOT pretty! So, this morning as we practiced our double unders, Stephanie standing by watching I not only jumped rope much much better but I got my 1st double under!!!! Oh my goodness how awesome that felt when Stephanie told me I did one! Granted, that's the only darn one I could get. But at least it's a start!

I have learned that not giving up and practicing will get you to " that place" or " that point" in your life, your work out, and your heart and mind. Just gotta stay focused on YOUR goals and WORK to achieve them!

Monday, July 23, 2012

C is for crazy... No silly for Crossfit

We all find something we love to do, a hobby, a passion. That something carries a different name for each person. Some even call it an obsession. Whatever you want to call you dream, passion, hobby, then call it that! Live it, breathe it, sleep it, eat it! Right? Well, for some... That want to be the best! For those who don't settle for less. I remember after having Stephen I kept a lot of the weight I gained. My size was a 14 and on Me that wasn't the prettiest! I went for a year never trying to get the weight off. I settled. I tried to justify it by saying oh I have had a baby. Yea, what a lame excuse! I lost down to a 10 during the divorce, which wasn't healthy either! March of 2011, the opportunity was given for me to be able to go to the gym. We started and I saw changes. But it wasnt until August 2011 when I started Crossfit. Now, for those of you that are familiar with Crossift, I did not go to a box ( a Crossfit gym)at first. I was going on my lunch break to a local gym and working with what they had to Crossift the best way possible. I fell in love with Crossfit. I would you tube how to do things and we loaded up one weekend and drove to watch a competition. I wanted more of it but how? Well... June 2012 my wonderful lunchtime trainer and friend Stephanie opened Circle City Crossfit with a few others. Since then things for me have changed. I am up at 4 AM four to five days a week headed to the box for a WOD. Eating habits are changing ( those seem to be the toughest). I stay sore just about all the time. When I finally feel like my body has managed to feel normal again I am sore again. Which sore is a good feeling! No pain no gain! Oh, and yes I can finally start to see some abs! Yay!!! Oh, thats crazy! Well that's not the craziest! The craziest thing is our warm up is your normal routine workout! The craziest is ripping your hands on the pull up bar but jumping back up to try again. The craziest is lifting weight that you " normally" wouldn't even dare attempt to lift. I had all the reason in the world to walk away my first week at Circle City. I couldn't jump rope and still can't. That is my absolute weakest point of my physical capabilities. Well, besides the fact i cant swim. That's ok.. Laugh all you want... One day I will better than just jump roping... I will be doing double unders maybe even triple unders! And, be able to swim. Ha.. But you know what stands out more than who finished first or who maxed out at the heaviest weight... The encouragement, the cheers, the don't give ups. This isn't just in our Crossift Box this is Crossfit! Watch the Crossfit games on you tube... Those fittest on Earth athletes finished and instead of walking away found someone and pushed them, cheered them, encouraged them to finish the WOD! Never quit, never give up! I never finish first in our WODs. Does that make me mad? Nope! Because I know that I am putting my best foot forward. Like, a week or so ago... I had to finish a WOD by running 200 or 400 meters. I can't remember but what I do remember is sweet Nancy who had finished her WOD ran with me, pushed me, encouraged me all the way through the run and back to the finish line. She isn't the only one in the box that is such a great cheerleader but everyone cheers on everyone. I see changes in not only myself but everyone I work out with. As Steph would say " that's just the beauty of it!" So yea, call me crazy at the fact I Crossfit...

Tuesday, February 14, 2012

Just an ole work shirt

Growing up as a child most of us would get flowers, balloons, candy or teddy bears from our parents, secret admirers, boyfriends/girlfriends, or from grandparents on this day of "Love". We would love it. I remember some of the guys in school would get things from their mom and would be so embarrassed. But now as we are older things change.

Tonight I received one of the greatest Valentine's Day gifts I have ever received. An unexpected gift at that!

After my lovely dinner date with Lee, I went to my parents house to pick up Stephen. When I arrived I was looking at all of his stuff from daycare and noticed something else on the table. It was 2 aprons. A little one for Stephen and one for me. Stephen's was made of mostly Thomas the Train material with a navy blue pocket. Mine was made out of mostly the navy blue material trimmed in the Thomas the Train material. Too stinkin cute. When I asked mom where they came from she told me there was a story about the aprons.

The story...

A while back my grandma's sweet neighbor, Ms. Brenda, asked grandma if she had any of my pawpaw's shirts still. Grandma has gotten rid of most of his clothes. But she found an old blue work shirt of his that he always wore with his overalls. Ms. Brenda told her she wanted to make me something. So thus the aprons were born. My apron is made mostly of pawpaw's navy blue work shirt with a Thomas the Train pocket and trim. My apron has the buttons from the work shirt to make additional pockets on the apron. Stephen's little apron is made mostly of Thomas the Train material with pawpaw's navy blue shirt pocket piece as his pocket on Stephen's apron.

As mom told me the story I couldn't but to tear up. The meaning of those aprons would last a lifetime. I always remember my pawpaw wearing his overalls and those navy blue shirts under them.

So this Valentine's Day I am so thankful for a gift that I can remember my pawpaw!

Flowers, candy, teddy bears and balloons are all nice but they all fade away at some point. My memories of my pawpaw never will.

Sometimes we get to materialized in life. We want stuff instead of making memories. I am so thankful that Ms. Brenda thought of me and made such an amazing gift for me. Yes she made it out of material but the memories she attached are many smiles from the heart.

So as this "Love Day" ends, remember the ones you love the most. Whether they are here or have already been laid to rest, thank the good Lord above for the lessons of love that those people instilled in you.

" Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres." 1 Corinthians 13:4-7

We can learn a lot from love if we just open our heart. I have a lot of learning to do that's for sure. I don't think you ever completely learn.

Valentine's Day 2012 has been a bittersweet day. Thank you Ms. Brenda for making memories into something even more memorable.

" And now these three remain: faith, hope, and love. But the greatest of these is love." 1Corinthians 13:13

Gonna sit back and admire just an ole work shirt!

Tuesday, January 10, 2012

Let's just be Honest!!

I remember the days back when you didn't have to question if someone was being honest or not. Everyone just knew that honesty was the best. But I also remember the days when I wasn't honest either. But now this subject weighs heavy on my heart.

Why is it these days everyone has to be so sneaky and tip toe around the truth. Just say the truth and save a lot of heartache at the same time. Some people think that being an honest person doesn't pertain to them. That they can treat people ever how they want. They think that their feelings are the only ones that matter. Why is it so hard for a person to be honest?

I remember telling lies growing up I thought I would save myself some heartache and spanking but all I did was make things worse. Just because we grow up doesn't mean that that changes. Lying still gets you in more trouble/ makes things worse. I remember thinking its just a little lie. But now that I am grown and have experienced the feeling of being lied too it's not just a little thing. Lying is lying and it doesn't change from one person to the next.

I would like to say I find it funny that people think they can get away with lying. But actually I find it rather heartbreaking. Lying ruins friendships, relationships, families, jobs and many other things in life.

So I ask why do some people feel compelled to lie? It sure isn't cool or awesome of you. It actually causes people to pull away from you, not trust you. So if someone tells you they don't trust you because you have lied in the past DO NOT get mad at anyone but YOURSELF!!!! You put yourself in that situation. So dig yourself out. PROVE YOURSELF to be a better and different person!

Does pride play a factor in this too? Are some people to afraid to drop their pride and be the real person on the inside? More than likely in some cases. I speak from experience. I use to be that way. But I learned letting me out and dropping the pride is so much better. Granted when I did that I lost friends and people I thought cared. Guess that is a good way to find out who really has your back. I was left with a select few. I wouldn't trade them for the world. So maybe you should drop your pride to learn how to feel good and live life to the best.

We get so caught up in what the world thinks of us that we lose our selves in the mix. We feel we have to put on a show. We have to make people think one thing instead of another. You know we can be ourselves and still live life to the fullest. You may miss out on something but it was things you probably needed to miss out on. The world doesn't care it just puts on a front just as you do!

I have realized most people lie to the ones they love the most so they don't "hurt" them. Or someone lie well just because. So why can't we be honest with the ones we love. Instead we push them further and further away from ourselves. We should always be honest with the family, best friend, and spouse! No matter what!!

Family. Well they deserve the truth because they raised you and the majority of the time they raised you better than lying.

Best Friend. 99% of the time your best friend knows the truth anyways! Or they can tell if you are lying or not.

Spouse/ Better Half. You should always be honest if you want the relationship to survive. Keep that open line of communication. You have to learn it's not just you anymore! And you are no longer single. Someone else's feelings are invested in this. So just be honest. And yes if you are trying to earn trust back because of a lie then you will have to prove yourself to be a better person. So don't get mad.

I think some people get mad just because they got caught lying! Well they should be mad at their self!! They caused all of the problems.


So I ask, Why must someone feel compelled to lie? Not big lies but little ones that should be just an honest quick answer. Lying just causes more grief than the truth does. I would rather know the truth and be heartbroken by it than lied too and look like a fool. I have looked like a fool way to many times. But God has a way of cleaning up our lives. He is constantly cleaning up! He cleans out the people that don't have the same morals as we do. I feel we are given an opportunity to teach them but you can't change a person.  If you have ever lied to a person then you will more than likely find yourself trying to prove yourself again. You will be earning back respect and if not then it's because you just don't care. I hope you care!

Sorry this blog tonight is so crazy with multiple paragraphs. This is something that I have noticed is getting out of hand!

At the days end here is my prayer and wish... That you learn respect and learn to be truthful. It will save so many heartaches. There is enough heartache with you lying about something so small.

I think I am off my soap box now!! :) Good night all!

Thursday, January 5, 2012

Trust your Feet

We do so many workouts now that it's hard to keep up with which is which. Yesterday it was the flithy fifty and today was something called chipper style I do believe. Today's workout consisted of 4 laps around the gym, 25 walking lunges, 25 push- ups, 25 kettle bell swings, 25 Burpees,and 100 jump ropes. I am horrible at jumping rope. I always have been so I was basically dreading but mentally preparing myself for jumping rope. I struggled do jump rope. I would do a few and then get tangled in the rope. I took a "water break" and when I came back it was like it just clicked. My upper and lower body finally got on the same page and I could jump rope. I flew through almost all of them in the end. I caught myself thinking about my feet, wanting to make sure they jump off the ground at the right time!

I find myself "learning" to trust my feet a lot in the gym. To stand just right on them for a certain workout to use them the right way in others. It clicked the other day and now I find myself repeating "trust your feet!" I find myself even telling Rhoda to trust her feet.

But we struggled at first to trust our own feet. We wobbled and shook trying to learn to trust. Now this is just our on 2 feet. Not trusting someone else with our life or anything. This is basic small things we shouldn't be worried about. But we do because it was something new and something different.

We all get this way in life too. How well we can learn from this. We all tend to have trust issues at some point in our lives. And for some it consumes them. Trust issues consumed me for a while. Now I have learned to trust my own feet and how to learn to trust others. Sometimes people do things that hurt and cause us to lose trust in them. Sometimes though we tend to forget that everyone is human and we ALL make mistakes. All this is easier said than done, this I do know. We have to learn to trust a person just as we learn in the gym to trust our feet.

Maybe we can learn a lesson from our feet. Think about your feet and the pounding they take all day everyday.... Sometimes we do the same to people. So when they crack and we lose trust it is up to us to forgive, and learn to trust again.

I trust my feet! They may get weak and let me down sometimes but I still trust them. People are the same way. Our friendship or relationship of any matter may get weak but no one is perfect.


I encourage you to learn to trust your feet more!

Monday, January 2, 2012

Holidays Are Gone and A New Year Is Here!!

So I guess most everyone "survived" Christmas and New Year's. We did. Christmas is always so busy for us. We always have so many places to go for Christmas. The greatest part of Christmas this year was seeing my child's face when he saw what Santa had brought him. Absolutely PRICELESS!

But now that the holidays are over and gone I realize we have all lost that "giddy" feeling. We have all slipped back into those mornings and days of "UGH!" We should still have a "giddy" feeling. We have a new year before us. So many people are starting on their list of resolutions. Me, well I didn't make the first resolution. Why make one if you know you are not gonna stick with it. Haha...

Instead of setting those same old resolutions of eating right, exercising, keeping the house up a little bit better, etc... why not dig deeper and work on the old heart that still continues to beat year after year. I mean you are here on this Earth for a reason right? So if you are still here then you still have a purpose! If you know your purpose then that's great. Don't quit, strive to do better!

Purpose. We all have a purpose. For years I mean years I wondered what MY purpose was. I wanted to help people. That's all I knew. Just help. I tossed ideas around about what to do when I graduated from high school. So many things I just didn't know what to do. Changed my major 3 times. Never accomplished anything. What was my purpose if I couldn't even make my mind up for a major? I wasn't searching deep enough. You have to do some soul-searching to find your purpose. So start searching.

Positive Influence. Be a positive influence on people. I can't stand people that constantly are looking for the worst and expecting the worst. They dread everyday and miss out on tons of happiness. They think your crazy when you smile and try to help. So don't be a negative influence. Don't drag others down. Lift them up!

It's up to you how to live your life. I just like to throw my 2 cents in. It doesn't matter if you want or think you need to change. We all need a little work. So start a new year off right. Do a little self maintenance before you try to fix someone else!!

Happy New Year!!