If Faith is believing, then I believe. If believing is to have Faith, then I have Faith. I believe my journey is for a reason, a reason yet unknown to me completely. I have Faith that God will lead me.
I'm not sure why God chose to make this my journey. For months, I really didn't think He cared. I questioned Him, I questioned my belief in Him, I questioned my Faith upon which I was raised. Why would God put someone through this? I mean really, what have I done to deserve this hurt? What didn't I do? What do I do wrong? His answer.... Finally, was " Nothing." Nothing? Really, Lord, is that all? Nothing? If you know me at all, you know I'm a little impatient. And I am no different when it comes to me talking to my Savior!
I am not gonna "rehash" my situation. Most of you know it and this post isn't about the situation. So with that being said.... Back to what I was saying. It took me a long time to confront God about my situation. And mainly when I first confronted Him, it was more questions than praying the nice little prayers people think you should pray. Then a point came a few months ago where the questions ran out and my heart fell silent for the first time and I heard finally His answer of " Nothing." I didn't do anything wrong. It wasn't something I said or did. It was beyond my control but it now is part of my story. In the stillness of my heart and quiet answers He began revealing His purpose for my journey.
I finally, fighting Him and my best friend Janna, tooth and nail, I went back to Wiregrass Church. Nerves shot and tears flowed. I remember sitting there crying, my heart screaming for Him. This place, this moment is right where I needed to be. To drop my burdens, to leave the cold heart there, to let go of the anger and hurt, to let Him fill me with His love. To seek Him in all I do, to find a new starting point, to believe, to have Faith. His purpose for my life is going to be amazing! Why wouldn't it be? He loves us all, more than we could ever imagine. Just as I know my purpose will be amazing, so will your purpose. Your journey is for a reason. He has a plan for you. Drop the pride, find your knees more often, and talk to Him. Have Faith in Him! Believe that you are worth so much more than the worldly things to Him!
I'm not sure why God chose to make this my journey. For months, I really didn't think He cared. I questioned Him, I questioned my belief in Him, I questioned my Faith upon which I was raised. Why would God put someone through this? I mean really, what have I done to deserve this hurt? What didn't I do? What do I do wrong? His answer.... Finally, was " Nothing." Nothing? Really, Lord, is that all? Nothing? If you know me at all, you know I'm a little impatient. And I am no different when it comes to me talking to my Savior!
I am not gonna "rehash" my situation. Most of you know it and this post isn't about the situation. So with that being said.... Back to what I was saying. It took me a long time to confront God about my situation. And mainly when I first confronted Him, it was more questions than praying the nice little prayers people think you should pray. Then a point came a few months ago where the questions ran out and my heart fell silent for the first time and I heard finally His answer of " Nothing." I didn't do anything wrong. It wasn't something I said or did. It was beyond my control but it now is part of my story. In the stillness of my heart and quiet answers He began revealing His purpose for my journey.
I finally, fighting Him and my best friend Janna, tooth and nail, I went back to Wiregrass Church. Nerves shot and tears flowed. I remember sitting there crying, my heart screaming for Him. This place, this moment is right where I needed to be. To drop my burdens, to leave the cold heart there, to let go of the anger and hurt, to let Him fill me with His love. To seek Him in all I do, to find a new starting point, to believe, to have Faith. His purpose for my life is going to be amazing! Why wouldn't it be? He loves us all, more than we could ever imagine. Just as I know my purpose will be amazing, so will your purpose. Your journey is for a reason. He has a plan for you. Drop the pride, find your knees more often, and talk to Him. Have Faith in Him! Believe that you are worth so much more than the worldly things to Him!
