As I pulled into the hospital today, I heard the end of a song that caught my attention. I found myself sitting in the car, tears in my eyes, and reality hitting me in the face! It was like a sucker punch out of no where!! What in the world have I been doing? Running. Running from the life He has planned for me! Why? It's scary, especially when you know how broken you are. But in all reality, we are all broken in some shape, form, or fashion.
The song reflects a broken marriage and the couple trying to stay together. But, when God wants to get your attention He can and will use exactly what he knows will get your attention. So there I sat, knowing that I am broken, realizing I'm not the only broken one, realizing that being broken is one way to grow closer to Him. I sat in my car... Heavy hearted and mind racing. Knowing that I have scars and that He loves me regardless of those scars and broken pieces. And all I can say is, "Thank You!"
I was reminded as well that He knows the plans for our life. His plans are much better than the one we have dreamt up ourselves. I found myself saying I could never have such an awesome plan from God. I'm broken, a mess, nowhere close to where I should be for Him to use me. He quietly reminded me, that my life, my story, is all part of His plan! He wanted me to be broken to help someone else that is broken! And what have I done? Just sat here and been broken. Not using my life, my story, my broken pieces to help someone else.
So I pray that my brokenness, my shattered pieces, my scars are used to help someone else! That through my broken pieces love shines!
