The unknown is so scary. Not knowing what will happen seems to consume us sometimes. We dwell on the past and worry about the future. I remember the days in my life when I was the biggest worry wart you ever met. But I remember also being that person that dwelled on the past too. I held on to things. I held grudges and couldn't let them go.My theory use to be, " If you hurt me in the past why do you deserve to be in the future?" That saying went for everything from boyfriends to friends to family even. I still remember the first time that I genuinely forgave someone. I remember forgiving and forgetting. I can honestly say that I forgot what I was forgiving them for. I have had that happen several times to me. So I took it as a life lesson. I thought I should learn from it.
It's extremely hard for me to comprehend how God can forgive and forget our sins! How amazing is that. We as humans can remember what someone done to us 20 or 30 years ago and still hold the grudge for it. We sure missed the boat on this big time. God forgives and he forgets. We forgive and almost never forget. For Him to forget is truly amazing. I mean I forget to take the trash to the road or to turn a light off but to forgive and forget the sin or the hurt/reason/incident is just breathe taking. That's where I find myself wanting to be more like God. I wanna be able to forgive and forget.
Forgiving and forgetting go hand in hand with second chances. I mean really think about it... How can someone have a second chance if we haven't forgiven them or if we hang it over their head because we haven't forgotten. Pride is a huge factor in this forgiving and forgetting issue too. Some of us have a hard time letting our pride fall. So if you are reading this and you are one who your pride is to important well you are probably getting all fired up at me right now. Ready to let me have it. Guess what loose the pride!!! Pride causes a lot of issues. Because of pride there are people that will not apologize for their actions. I personally know someone like this. I have never heard him apologize. And there have been plenty of times that he should have.
With Lee and I working on our relationship and piecing things back together we both have learned the whole pride and forgiving and forgetting thing. With out forgiving and forgetting we wouldn't be able to mend our relationship. The past is the past for a reason. Don't look back cause you can't change it. But look forward to making the future even better. We both have learned from mistakes and take those life lessons with us to help us in the future.
Many times people find themselves forgiving someone but still walking around hanging on to what that person did to them. Wow if I did that do you know I would have a broke back trying to carry around all the situations in my life like that. Who has time for that? I mean really come on folks. Who has a heart that wants to go through that. I sure don't.
I probably have one of the most tender hearts ever. I use to cry about everything and everything use to get to me in a matter of seconds. I have toughened up some but still got the tenderness. When I realized that first time that I had really and truly forgave and forgotten, it made me glad and I didn't feel like I had to walk around with a burden on my heart. If you have ever felt this way you know it is a wonderful feeling.
The older I have gotten ( not that I am old by any means) the more moments I have had like that. Some of it I believe comes with growing up and maturing. Granted some people will never grow up and mature. But we can definitely pray for them. I still struggle with a few forgiving and forgetting situations now. Things that left some bad scares. I am working on myself to forgive and forget and I know in time it will happen because that's just how my God works.
We all can probably work on the forgiving and forgetting parts of our hearts. No one is perfect. We all make mistakes and we all want to be forgiven of those mistakes. So we should start by forgiving others and be an example so that when it comes time for someone to forgive you, they see your example and learn from it so that they are able to truly forgive you and forget the mistake.
If you struggle with pride maybe you should sit back and examine things. Just remember it's great to have pride in your job, in your family, and to take pride in yourself. BUT there is an line that shouldn't be crossed. A lot of crossed that line and think no wrong but that's when your pride because a problem.
Just I hope all of this makes sense. My heart has been jumping all around. So many things I want to share and write. I just have to get them out one thing at a time.
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