Took me long enough....

Piglet says to Pooh, " How do you spell love?" Pooh say to Piglet. " You don't spell it, You feel it!"

There is so much we can learn from Pooh and Piglet. Especially when it comes to friendship, yourself and love.

I made the comment this week to someone that growing up I was always dependent on my parents and then went straight into a marriage being dependent on him. Now I am independent.

That person smiled and agreed. They knew exactly what I was talking about. All my life I have been so dependent on someone else for my happiness. But I learned real quick about being dependent and independent when you are forced to be one or the other. I definitely didn't like being forced into being independent. I actually thought I couldn't be independent at this point in my life. But in the last year and a half I have definitely learned that I should have become independent a long time ago.

Becoming independent is almost like growing up in a sense. You realize that you don't need every ones opinion to decide on what you think is right. In the last year and a half I have had some of the toughest battles of my life. But I thank God above for those battles and the lessons learned from those battles. Little battles or big battles, they both have made me the person I am today. I remember I always use to ask my parents their opinion on everything. * Daddy if you read this please don't take this the wrong way!* Now I can make my own decision and know that I am happy with my decision because I MADE that decision. I remember when I would ask for my parents opinion and my ex husband's opinion and those would clash. Jeez that really made the situation hard for me at the time. Being so dependent and people's opinion clashing can throw a loop in the situation.  Glad those days are over!!!

Now I can say that I am independent even though learning to be independent wasn't easy. I am thankful that I am. I am a much stronger woman. I think it took me long enough to realize that I could still be independent. I found hope and pushed myself. I dug down deep to find the real me that I was always so scared to let people see. Ya know once you find the real you and let people see you things improve so much in your life. I have a million reasons to smile. I could think of a few reasons why I shouldn't smile. But why do that when smiling out weighs not smiling.

Being independent doesn't mean that I love being alone. God only knows that's not the case. But the time just isn't right. So until the time is right I will continue to be Miss Independent, Miss Happy, Miss Content, Miss I love my Life! I love my life for many reasons. As should you! We gotta learn to be thankful for what we got instead of wanting what we ain't got.

Took me long enough to be happy with myself. You gotta be happy with yourself before you can make someone else happy. You gotta be happy with yourself in order to spread the happiness. I have had this saying for the past year " I am just me."

Took me long enough to be able to say " I am just me" and be happy about saying that. So I am happy with myself and not putting my happiness in someone else. Sounds harsh I know but I guess you just have to see it from my point of view to understand. I don't need someone to make me happy, I am already happy.  One day, love will find its way to me, when the time is right. As for now I am happy with me and it took me long enough.

I won't spell love one day, I will feel love one day. Gotta love Pooh and Piglet.